Usually when faced with a situation where public speaking is involved i get very nervous. Over the years i have gotten more comfortable with it as i have done many programs at our guild meeting but still always have that nervous stomach feeling even if it doesn't always show. Last night when i had to run the guild meeting for my first time i was expecting to get that nervous stomach feeling...but i didn't, not even a bit! If this was a year ago, i would have been worryed about the meeting all month long. What has happened to me? When did i grow out of this 'shy disease' i have delt with all my life.
Lori's theory is that it's all her doing (which of coarse it is... everyone at the guild knows that) but then she said that 'her work is now done and she can move on"......NOOOOOO! She can't move...what if i have a relaps who will pull me out of my shell again, who will remind me to take my medication :) Yes, i am in deep denial about her future move but until i see a moving van in her driveway.....i'll just skip along in my happy little world with my fingers in my ears singing"..... LA LA LA LA" when i hear " has Lori heard when she's moving yet".
Off the machine today…
3 hours ago